no one is interested in my blog so it doesn't really matter what i say..
but
its been a mixed year..
older
not wiser
i think reasonably happy
and lots of great adventures on the horizon....
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
kelly rae: happy to be lost.
kelly rae: happy to be lost.: "it's been coming for awhile. the disengagement. the letting it completely drop from my ireallyneedto consciousness. the backing away. the..."
Saturday, January 8, 2011
another year
geez it's 2011 already.
i have been so looking forward to 2011 and now stuff is happening that is going to challenge me to the hilt.
i definately do not want to get into that black place that i was in this time last year.. but things aren't looking good at the moment.
i think i'll reflect on 2010.
a really good year after the early stuff. was soo happy at work.. my private life, a dream. my girls getting on and doing well. a few set backs but they are on top of them all now.
i have definately been addicted to etsy. bought lots of fabulous stuff and mostly those etsy girls have been so great to purchase from //@! but geez,, what is it with these 'self centred creative groups'. i get the 'lets meet and learn together' stuff... networking and learning from others is great.. having good friends and meeting up with them is great.. but what is it with the whole exclusion thing..
one of the ladies i have bought quite a lot from was nice at first and now treats me like i'm poison.
i do email a bit to the people i purchase from. as far as i'm concerned if i purchase something and it's going to cost quite a few dollars then i have the right to ask questions about the item and if the size is not right for me then ask if it can be re-sized.. and even with this up and down with moods person she kept saying.. yep, not a problem.. so L, what is it about.. she had a big session on her blog a few weeks ago after some people posted some pretty scathing stuff on it.. but geez L. why not look, learn and improve instead of rallying your like-buddies and protest about the 'unfairness' of it all. quite frankly i do think you need to be a bit more respectful if you are going onto the open market to sell your wares... and blog to pat yourselves on the back. you really have upset me you know....
and.. these groups... if your going to blog.. and allow people to make comments.. whats with the 'selection' process... and as for the 'contests'.. reeally..
anyway, that over.. there are some fabulously talented people out there. but please remember people.. we are all human... we are born, we live, we die... no one is better than anyone else.
why do we live in a world where we place people on pedestals because they look good, or sing OK, or 'act' or play sport.. why are these 'selected' ones allowed to live their lives with wealth and power.. there is so much inequity in this world and people 'allow' this to happen.. I DON'T GET IT...
i guess today i'm feeling pretty much vulnerable.
uncertainty..
the future...
but
i have the most awesome family.
i love them all to bits.
i'm not a bad person. i work in a profession which is giving and caring. i try with my utmost fullness to fulfil the sanctity of this calling. i live my life, avoiding conflict with others and maintaining isolation to attain this.
and.. i have my dreams. like everyone else.
i have been so looking forward to 2011 and now stuff is happening that is going to challenge me to the hilt.
i definately do not want to get into that black place that i was in this time last year.. but things aren't looking good at the moment.
i think i'll reflect on 2010.
a really good year after the early stuff. was soo happy at work.. my private life, a dream. my girls getting on and doing well. a few set backs but they are on top of them all now.
i have definately been addicted to etsy. bought lots of fabulous stuff and mostly those etsy girls have been so great to purchase from //@! but geez,, what is it with these 'self centred creative groups'. i get the 'lets meet and learn together' stuff... networking and learning from others is great.. having good friends and meeting up with them is great.. but what is it with the whole exclusion thing..
one of the ladies i have bought quite a lot from was nice at first and now treats me like i'm poison.
i do email a bit to the people i purchase from. as far as i'm concerned if i purchase something and it's going to cost quite a few dollars then i have the right to ask questions about the item and if the size is not right for me then ask if it can be re-sized.. and even with this up and down with moods person she kept saying.. yep, not a problem.. so L, what is it about.. she had a big session on her blog a few weeks ago after some people posted some pretty scathing stuff on it.. but geez L. why not look, learn and improve instead of rallying your like-buddies and protest about the 'unfairness' of it all. quite frankly i do think you need to be a bit more respectful if you are going onto the open market to sell your wares... and blog to pat yourselves on the back. you really have upset me you know....
and.. these groups... if your going to blog.. and allow people to make comments.. whats with the 'selection' process... and as for the 'contests'.. reeally..
anyway, that over.. there are some fabulously talented people out there. but please remember people.. we are all human... we are born, we live, we die... no one is better than anyone else.
why do we live in a world where we place people on pedestals because they look good, or sing OK, or 'act' or play sport.. why are these 'selected' ones allowed to live their lives with wealth and power.. there is so much inequity in this world and people 'allow' this to happen.. I DON'T GET IT...
i guess today i'm feeling pretty much vulnerable.
uncertainty..
the future...
but
i have the most awesome family.
i love them all to bits.
i'm not a bad person. i work in a profession which is giving and caring. i try with my utmost fullness to fulfil the sanctity of this calling. i live my life, avoiding conflict with others and maintaining isolation to attain this.
and.. i have my dreams. like everyone else.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Wow it's been Almost a Year since my last Blog
How time flies.
I actually forgot that I had a blog. So much has changed since my last entry.
2010 has been a great year. After all the depression and frustration a great thing happened and an angel came to my rescue. Apart from getting older and somewhat heftier the year has been one of the bests in my working life.
I feel quite content and optimistic about life, my work and our future. Apart from my weight which is just eluding me. Please let my good fortune last.
Some stormy seas are on the horizon. I shall just have to wait and see and ride it out. Too much is at stake if i falter.
Anyway, a review of the year.
Health wise at this point in time no major concerns.
Have joined a gym and going to zumba classes. Zumba is the best. Its lively exciting and so much fun.
I finish my hour long zumba class sweaty and exhausted but so invigorated. Our teacher is a young girl called Rachel. She is amazing. She moves perfectly. Her brother attends class and he has started to lead some of the routines. His take on the routine composes the same moves but in an entirely different way. More brash and purposeful. I do enjoy it. My exercise class is run by 'Carl'. A funny pommy all of 67 but he pushes us to our limit. The other members are all elderly people. Mid 40's to late 70's. We use weights and do strengthening exercises. It's great fun. Don't know why but i still can't lose weight. It must be these post MP hormones.
We are still planning for our dream but it may take longer than we would wish but i guess we are only just 60 and 59 so while we are able we must get ourselves in the best possible position.
Have met some really nice etsy people.
They have some amazing jewellery which i find so hard to resist, but i do have my limit.
Some of my recommendations include SuZie Clayton's RedLime Etsy store, Jennifer Valentines SacredCake store, Mary Ann Dodds etsy store and Lorelei Eurto's etsy store. Love all the work of these fabulous people. They are so talented and each creates in different ways. Kristen Randall from Moodswings is a bit of an alternative young woman but i really love her storybook charms and her soldered glass and resin pendants. She is mostly self taught and very talented.
I love exchanging emails with all these ladies and love reading those with blogs and the links to them.
The state of the nation. Never really changes.
The world is in turmoil in some places. We are so lucky to live where we live and are mostly protected from the evils that this world beholds. Every day i count how lucky i am to be one of the lucky few.
Must learn to be more creative with my blog. Will get my talented son in law to show me how to add links and interesting stuff.
I actually forgot that I had a blog. So much has changed since my last entry.
2010 has been a great year. After all the depression and frustration a great thing happened and an angel came to my rescue. Apart from getting older and somewhat heftier the year has been one of the bests in my working life.
I feel quite content and optimistic about life, my work and our future. Apart from my weight which is just eluding me. Please let my good fortune last.
Some stormy seas are on the horizon. I shall just have to wait and see and ride it out. Too much is at stake if i falter.
Anyway, a review of the year.
Health wise at this point in time no major concerns.
Have joined a gym and going to zumba classes. Zumba is the best. Its lively exciting and so much fun.
I finish my hour long zumba class sweaty and exhausted but so invigorated. Our teacher is a young girl called Rachel. She is amazing. She moves perfectly. Her brother attends class and he has started to lead some of the routines. His take on the routine composes the same moves but in an entirely different way. More brash and purposeful. I do enjoy it. My exercise class is run by 'Carl'. A funny pommy all of 67 but he pushes us to our limit. The other members are all elderly people. Mid 40's to late 70's. We use weights and do strengthening exercises. It's great fun. Don't know why but i still can't lose weight. It must be these post MP hormones.
We are still planning for our dream but it may take longer than we would wish but i guess we are only just 60 and 59 so while we are able we must get ourselves in the best possible position.
Have met some really nice etsy people.
They have some amazing jewellery which i find so hard to resist, but i do have my limit.
Some of my recommendations include SuZie Clayton's RedLime Etsy store, Jennifer Valentines SacredCake store, Mary Ann Dodds etsy store and Lorelei Eurto's etsy store. Love all the work of these fabulous people. They are so talented and each creates in different ways. Kristen Randall from Moodswings is a bit of an alternative young woman but i really love her storybook charms and her soldered glass and resin pendants. She is mostly self taught and very talented.
I love exchanging emails with all these ladies and love reading those with blogs and the links to them.
The state of the nation. Never really changes.
The world is in turmoil in some places. We are so lucky to live where we live and are mostly protected from the evils that this world beholds. Every day i count how lucky i am to be one of the lucky few.
Must learn to be more creative with my blog. Will get my talented son in law to show me how to add links and interesting stuff.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
a lot has happened...
it's been ages since my last blog.
my world is falling around my ears and i can't do anything about it.
people are basicly bad.
they try hard to destroy, upset and make life tough for others
my work life has always been difficult..a struggle
not because of the physical work or my knowledge, but the human dynamics of so called work colleagues.
i think that i see the world differently to others.
i keep to myself. keep out of the game but then others bring me in and all of a sudden its all out against me.
i just want to keep to myself
will have to change jobs in 2010. money will be no where as good and they will win - get as they have set out to do.
but i shall never have to put up with them then. our plans will be very diffent.won't be able to realize our dreams. i have worked hard all my life and it will have been in vain.
i don't know what else to do. cannot jeopodise my little one.
my world is falling around my ears and i can't do anything about it.
people are basicly bad.
they try hard to destroy, upset and make life tough for others
my work life has always been difficult..a struggle
not because of the physical work or my knowledge, but the human dynamics of so called work colleagues.
i think that i see the world differently to others.
i keep to myself. keep out of the game but then others bring me in and all of a sudden its all out against me.
i just want to keep to myself
will have to change jobs in 2010. money will be no where as good and they will win - get as they have set out to do.
but i shall never have to put up with them then. our plans will be very diffent.won't be able to realize our dreams. i have worked hard all my life and it will have been in vain.
i don't know what else to do. cannot jeopodise my little one.
Monday, October 5, 2009
time marches on
It is October already. Just celebrated Pete's 59th birthday.
It seems such a short while ago that our lives collided. But no it doesn't. WE have been together forever.
I have decided that I feel great. The weather is cool and unpredictable. Weather does get me down but I seriously need to loose weight before the onslaught of summer. It is cool for spring. As I read the blogs from others in the US their fall has just arrived and they all seem to love their fall. For me it is summer. Memories of my youth. swimming. the sun. the sand at the beach. wearing a bikini. brown deliciously young skin. mangoes. grapes. holidays at Port Macquarie when our girls were little.
so much has changed. so much is out of my control.
my dreams continue. my wishes for my beautiful daughters who are now very grown young women.
i think i try to fulfill my dreams with my shopping and my purchases.
i do love my house. i sit down and think of the reasons why i would like a fresh new house. do the reasons for a new house outweigh the reasons for staying. they must.
i'm getting cold in this darn room. must be coffee time.
i am thankful for so many things. i donot dwell on nature and 'good people'. i believe the only good people are my 3. i'm not. i have a happy life with my darling. my girls are a source of pride. we have our home our work our ability to fulfil a few dreams.
today the sun is shining after a wet week end. i get so much energy from the sun.
we drove to newcastle to see that lovely house again. just as wonderful the second time around. the salesperson was horrible to me. why are people horrible to me. do i encourage this attitude? what do i do wrong?
am eagerly waiting for the postie to bring some of my lovely items from etsy. there is so much great stuff.
ahh. finally a sip of my coffee. it smells great and tastes great.
my black shawl is warming me up. i feel good again.
It seems such a short while ago that our lives collided. But no it doesn't. WE have been together forever.
I have decided that I feel great. The weather is cool and unpredictable. Weather does get me down but I seriously need to loose weight before the onslaught of summer. It is cool for spring. As I read the blogs from others in the US their fall has just arrived and they all seem to love their fall. For me it is summer. Memories of my youth. swimming. the sun. the sand at the beach. wearing a bikini. brown deliciously young skin. mangoes. grapes. holidays at Port Macquarie when our girls were little.
so much has changed. so much is out of my control.
my dreams continue. my wishes for my beautiful daughters who are now very grown young women.
i think i try to fulfill my dreams with my shopping and my purchases.
i do love my house. i sit down and think of the reasons why i would like a fresh new house. do the reasons for a new house outweigh the reasons for staying. they must.
i'm getting cold in this darn room. must be coffee time.
i am thankful for so many things. i donot dwell on nature and 'good people'. i believe the only good people are my 3. i'm not. i have a happy life with my darling. my girls are a source of pride. we have our home our work our ability to fulfil a few dreams.
today the sun is shining after a wet week end. i get so much energy from the sun.
we drove to newcastle to see that lovely house again. just as wonderful the second time around. the salesperson was horrible to me. why are people horrible to me. do i encourage this attitude? what do i do wrong?
am eagerly waiting for the postie to bring some of my lovely items from etsy. there is so much great stuff.
ahh. finally a sip of my coffee. it smells great and tastes great.
my black shawl is warming me up. i feel good again.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Well its been a while since my last blog. I seem to spend all my time blog reading and etsying. Its a lot of fun
Not much to add to my file at the moment, apart from desperately wanting a new house not much else to talk about in my life.
I unfortunately when I grasp a new fad I get totally carried wawy with it. It adds a spice to life.
Finding some more great etsy sites. Need to learn to add my most recent blog views to this site
Till next time
Not much to add to my file at the moment, apart from desperately wanting a new house not much else to talk about in my life.
I unfortunately when I grasp a new fad I get totally carried wawy with it. It adds a spice to life.
Finding some more great etsy sites. Need to learn to add my most recent blog views to this site
Till next time
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